由香港回來已有兩星期的時間，但直到現在仍然有jetlag的問題，真annoying!!每天工作後身體都累得很，但每晚都會在3、4點的時候變得眼光光。由於實在睡眠不足而又需要足夠的休息去應付工作，所以近呢幾晚都有take安眠藥。但實在知道吃安眠藥對身體是不好的，怎麽辦呢?現在我就只有相信自已真是已經老了!
每當深夜在床上展轉反側的時候，我就祈禱。在禱告中，我都想起很多親友，好些己經失了聯絡一段時間。但就是在神的感動下，神讓我記念到友人的需要，對我來說，這種經歷是很特別的。
Sunday, December 10, 2006
Saturday, December 09, 2006
香港之旅(一)
雖然離開了香港只有幾個月的時間，但感覺上就始像已離開了好一段頗長的時間。身邊的人、事和物好像很親切和熟識，但感覺上卻又帶點陌生，真奇怪!再加上jetlag原故， 所以回港後的第一個星期都只是留在家中好好休息、睡飽一番!好友卻關心我，以為我回了加拿大後患上depression 或自閉症等。哈！過了一星期的適應後，我又回復正常，精神奕奕的四處走，四處逛。那麽我的適應力也不算太差吧！
記得上次回加拿大的前一、兩星期左右，我跟媽媽有一次口角。事原她不滿我為什麽遲遲還沒有把帶回加拿大的東西執好，語氣和面色當然不會太客氣，記得當時我嘗試忍了幾分鐘，但最終也忍不住，我告訴她我自己也很想快一點完成，可是我只得一雙手(因Peter已先回了加拿大)，我有點埋怨她之前沒有抽時間幫助我執拾，但卻又大大聲聲的責罵我。但其實我心知道自已的事是不可依賴其他人，但那刻我感到傷心是因為媽媽常有很多節目，而好像忽略了我的需要。之後我便寫了一封信向媽媽道歉之餘，亦坦白說出我的感受。記得第二天早禱會前老公亦在長途電話中叫我打個電話給媽媽，問問她怎麼樣。但可能我仍然有點怒氣，我雖然知道我應該打這個電話，但"肉體卻是軟弱"。與老公收線後，早禱會使隨即開始。很奇妙！實在很奇妙！一開始，牧師禱告神寬恕我們的罪，就是那一刻(和之前不願打給媽媽只是幾分鐘之差)，我突然很想念媽媽，很希望打電話給她看看她是不是還在生氣，又擔心她會因為生我氣連教會也不去。所以早禱會一完結，我便立刻打給媽媽，看看她是否on her way to church..雖然她語調仍然有點mad而令我有些不安，但起碼她沒有不到教會去途避我。在崇拜的詩歌敬拜當中，我不停的哭，一來思想到神愛的偉大，二來又想到為什麽自己常常口口聲聲說我愛媽媽，但卻又說了那些話傷害了她呢！於是我便hug hug媽媽，真誠地在"淚涕交义"的情況下對她道歉，之後大家都在主耶穌十架的恩光下和好了。認識我的朋友都知道我是非常善忘，但那次經歷卻叫我十分深刻，因我經歷到神令人的改變，神對人的感動和神怎樣使人和好。此外，我亦再一次感受到"我們愛，因為神先愛我們"。
我在這裏重提這事，是因為我在今次的旅程中，我看到媽媽對我的改變，我看到她都好願意盡量去抽時間去陪我，去我開心。有時我都識趣，叫她去應約朋友的邀請，因我看見她願意為我改變的心，已經甜在心頭了!
記得上次回加拿大的前一、兩星期左右，我跟媽媽有一次口角。事原她不滿我為什麽遲遲還沒有把帶回加拿大的東西執好，語氣和面色當然不會太客氣，記得當時我嘗試忍了幾分鐘，但最終也忍不住，我告訴她我自己也很想快一點完成，可是我只得一雙手(因Peter已先回了加拿大)，我有點埋怨她之前沒有抽時間幫助我執拾，但卻又大大聲聲的責罵我。但其實我心知道自已的事是不可依賴其他人，但那刻我感到傷心是因為媽媽常有很多節目，而好像忽略了我的需要。之後我便寫了一封信向媽媽道歉之餘，亦坦白說出我的感受。記得第二天早禱會前老公亦在長途電話中叫我打個電話給媽媽，問問她怎麼樣。但可能我仍然有點怒氣，我雖然知道我應該打這個電話，但"肉體卻是軟弱"。與老公收線後，早禱會使隨即開始。很奇妙！實在很奇妙！一開始，牧師禱告神寬恕我們的罪，就是那一刻(和之前不願打給媽媽只是幾分鐘之差)，我突然很想念媽媽，很希望打電話給她看看她是不是還在生氣，又擔心她會因為生我氣連教會也不去。所以早禱會一完結，我便立刻打給媽媽，看看她是否on her way to church..雖然她語調仍然有點mad而令我有些不安，但起碼她沒有不到教會去途避我。在崇拜的詩歌敬拜當中，我不停的哭，一來思想到神愛的偉大，二來又想到為什麽自己常常口口聲聲說我愛媽媽，但卻又說了那些話傷害了她呢！於是我便hug hug媽媽，真誠地在"淚涕交义"的情況下對她道歉，之後大家都在主耶穌十架的恩光下和好了。認識我的朋友都知道我是非常善忘，但那次經歷卻叫我十分深刻，因我經歷到神令人的改變，神對人的感動和神怎樣使人和好。此外，我亦再一次感受到"我們愛，因為神先愛我們"。
我在這裏重提這事，是因為我在今次的旅程中，我看到媽媽對我的改變，我看到她都好願意盡量去抽時間去陪我，去我開心。有時我都識趣，叫她去應約朋友的邀請，因我看見她願意為我改變的心，已經甜在心頭了!
Thursday, December 07, 2006
唇瘡又來了!
認識我的朋友都知道我經常生唇瘡，自我初中開始，它便時不時來visit吓我，真的令我有點奧惱。可能是因為近日仍然在fighting with jetlag,每晚都只有不多於5小時的睡眠，又要應付由早到晚的餐館工作，所以低抗力自然大跌，而導致瘡瘡又來找我了(幸好今次不是太嚴重)!我真的很討厭這叫唇瘡的東西，醜怪之餘，更是叫人痛得很，嚴重時一次過上下咀唇生2、3 patches，那時因為痛的原固，真的連飲水這咀唇小動作也使人痛叫非常，莫說要吃東西、講話或笑了。唇瘡呀!唇瘡呀!你何時才可以真正的離開我呢?
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Thursday, November 02, 2006
SURPRISE COMING BACK!!
Yes, I have been back to HK for a short visit. This trip is mainly for my cousin's wedding. Since mom and I wanna give this cousin and his family a surprise, we deliberately didn't say a word about my visit until now. Since this family lives very close with my parents, mom even asked me to put on a cap or even wear SARS mask whenever I go out on the days before the wedding day.. Haha.. Of course I didn't really do that but still be careful when I go out so that our plan won't be spoiled! The big day will be on this coming Sat, that means I needa wait for a day more before this post can be up!
I do feel like I have left HK for a long time but indeed it's only 2-3 months. I thank God that mom and dad still look great and still enjoy their lives very much! Somehow I am very thankful that they are very capable and independent so that I can have the freedom and choice to do whatever I want. I am always very proud of my parents for their understanding and continuous support throughout my life. They seldom give me (now Peter and I) unnecessary pressure and this is the thing that I appreciate the most. Cuz I do see lots of friends around me have experienced tones of pressure from their family in an unreasonable way. Though my parents would push us to do something sometimes, I know it's for our own good and it's not pressure at all but I just take it as reminder. And now, mom has accepted Christ and is a Christian, our relationship has become even closer and we can really share almost everything. Cuz in the past, I couldn't really share with her about my spiritual stuffs.. Even if I told her, she didn't understand. But now, not only I share, she starts to share and counts God's blessings in her life with me. How amazing! God's work is ALWAYS wonderful and beautiful! I am waiting Dad to come to know God and be my brother in Christ one day! I will keep waiting and praying with patience and with faith!
I do feel like I have left HK for a long time but indeed it's only 2-3 months. I thank God that mom and dad still look great and still enjoy their lives very much! Somehow I am very thankful that they are very capable and independent so that I can have the freedom and choice to do whatever I want. I am always very proud of my parents for their understanding and continuous support throughout my life. They seldom give me (now Peter and I) unnecessary pressure and this is the thing that I appreciate the most. Cuz I do see lots of friends around me have experienced tones of pressure from their family in an unreasonable way. Though my parents would push us to do something sometimes, I know it's for our own good and it's not pressure at all but I just take it as reminder. And now, mom has accepted Christ and is a Christian, our relationship has become even closer and we can really share almost everything. Cuz in the past, I couldn't really share with her about my spiritual stuffs.. Even if I told her, she didn't understand. But now, not only I share, she starts to share and counts God's blessings in her life with me. How amazing! God's work is ALWAYS wonderful and beautiful! I am waiting Dad to come to know God and be my brother in Christ one day! I will keep waiting and praying with patience and with faith!
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